The meaning of the pumpkins.
Commonly repeated through her artwork and installation, Kusama started using this repetitive theme of pumpkins to overcome her fears, make some sense of her hallucinations, as well as gain control over her feelings and emotions. As such, she uses pumpkins and other components such as dots and phalluses as a tool to re-experience something that once instilled fear in her. By reproducing the forms of things that terrify her in real life, Kusama has been able to find a technique that has allowed her to suppress her fears thereby turning something frightening into something amusing and inspiring.